Self-service or no biggie

If it's a quickie and he's the only one that cums it's not a big deal, that's more of a "for the rush thing" for me.
If we've been at it for a while and I'm close but it's just out of reach then normally both of us will keep at some form of something until I get a release otherwise I can't go to sleep.

The infamous OTHER: Since I've never been able to have any kind of orgasm, I go through a full range of emotions every time we have sex. Anger and resentment towards my husband (why can't he do it for me?), anger and resentment towards myself (why can't I do it?), worry and a bit of paranoia (is there something wrong with me??), plus a good share of balls-out attitude (FUCK IT! It's never going to happen, so why even bother!).

Even when I try to work on it myself after he's done, I usually get pissed off because it just ends up being a waste of time and effort.

I usually don't mind too much, just having sex feels awesome. But if it's been awhile since I've had one and I'm reaaaalllyyy hormonal I have to take a deep breath and remind myself that it's not his fault I didn't and that I shouldn't be angry.

If I want to, I will!!

I don't "worry it will never happen again".....but I do cry on occasion if I can't get off.

Sometimes I know it's just not happening. I'm disappointed, but I don't cry. I know I'll have one on another day.

I take care of it afterwards, which works out since he always takes a shower after sex anyway, so I have time to myself. I used to get very frustrated about it though, like it was unfair somehow that he got to orgasm and I didn't.

I have problems because of the type of medication I am on and would get very upset when I couldn't have one....now we have to try harder and longer in order for it to happen.

I only get mad (slightly) if he comes just before I can. I usually get myself there quickly. Most of the time its not a big deal for me if he comes and I don't... as long as I'm not close.

What really pisses me off is when he brings me to the brink and back down too many times for me to get off. Then I am completely unable to come and get so damn frustrated lol. It doesn't happen very often anymore...

It does upset me when it doesn't happen. I can normally cum by playing with myself whether sex is involved or not, but sometimes I'm too tired or distracted and it takes a long time. Once I'm aroused it's frustrating to not be able to cum, so I go at it as long as it takes, sore clit and all.

I get pretty frustrated but I never take it out on my partner. It's rare for me to have clitoral orgasms at the hand of another, so I don't usually get frustrated anymore.