Hi everyone, I have a very serious subject to discuss with you. My boyfriend and I enjoy engaging in pegging and other woman-on-top sort of activities about once a week, and usually it's all fun and games, laughter, pleasure, you get the gist. But last night something really scary happened. As usual, I lubed up my finger and slipped it inside him to start preparing him for... bigger things to come, and was startled to find something.
Just inside him by maybe an inch, just below the surface my finger was touching, was a very small, hard, almost ball-shaped bump. It could not possibly have even been a quarter inch wide, and was on the wall of his insides nearest his scrotum (anterior? posterior? not sure, the wall that faces the prostate). I don't think it was ON his prostate, because his is actually further in than the average man's, I need to insert my whole finger to find it. And it definitely was NOT there two weeks ago (he wanted it so bad last week he didn't give me time to play with my hands, just strap on and go).
I did what I thought was right. I paused what we were doing, gave it a good feel, and gently let him know what I found. I was prepared to be supportive in any way he needed. To my surprise, all I got was, "Eh. *shrug* Maybe I have butt cancer." And he wiggled his bum at me to continue.
So I smacked his butt and stopped his wiggling, sat back and cleared my head for a sec, and expressed worry about continuing. He said he wasn't worried at all and begged me to continue. Eventually I managed to get that little bump out of my mind and enjoy myself.
But when I woke up this morning, I couldn't help but wonder if it was okay. I mean, I fucked him pretty hard. And he had a bump in there. I wanted nothing more than to feel and see if it was still there. I know down there, very small bumps can come and go with no harm done. But I'm a huge worrier.
I need some advice. I have no clue what to do. He has no health insurance, and a hospital bill from February of LAST year that is still being paid off because we have little spare money. I know a few things that it COULD be, like a pollup (spell checker says that's misspelled), or a cyst, or a pimple, or stress from a rough bowel movement, all things that are not very threatening. But my brain won't let go of the possibility that it could be something... worse. I'm scared.
What should I do? I don't want to be a nag. Would it be bad to wait a week and see if it's there the next time we play before I bring it up again?
Any help anyone can offer will be appreciated. Thanks for listening, everyone, and sorry for the long post.
-Pixie
Just inside him by maybe an inch, just below the surface my finger was touching, was a very small, hard, almost ball-shaped bump. It could not possibly have even been a quarter inch wide, and was on the wall of his insides nearest his scrotum (anterior? posterior? not sure, the wall that faces the prostate). I don't think it was ON his prostate, because his is actually further in than the average man's, I need to insert my whole finger to find it. And it definitely was NOT there two weeks ago (he wanted it so bad last week he didn't give me time to play with my hands, just strap on and go).
I did what I thought was right. I paused what we were doing, gave it a good feel, and gently let him know what I found. I was prepared to be supportive in any way he needed. To my surprise, all I got was, "Eh. *shrug* Maybe I have butt cancer." And he wiggled his bum at me to continue.
So I smacked his butt and stopped his wiggling, sat back and cleared my head for a sec, and expressed worry about continuing. He said he wasn't worried at all and begged me to continue. Eventually I managed to get that little bump out of my mind and enjoy myself.
But when I woke up this morning, I couldn't help but wonder if it was okay. I mean, I fucked him pretty hard. And he had a bump in there. I wanted nothing more than to feel and see if it was still there. I know down there, very small bumps can come and go with no harm done. But I'm a huge worrier.
I need some advice. I have no clue what to do. He has no health insurance, and a hospital bill from February of LAST year that is still being paid off because we have little spare money. I know a few things that it COULD be, like a pollup (spell checker says that's misspelled), or a cyst, or a pimple, or stress from a rough bowel movement, all things that are not very threatening. But my brain won't let go of the possibility that it could be something... worse. I'm scared.
What should I do? I don't want to be a nag. Would it be bad to wait a week and see if it's there the next time we play before I bring it up again?
Any help anyone can offer will be appreciated. Thanks for listening, everyone, and sorry for the long post.
-Pixie