Getting pegged. I like it, but it was a bit scary when I realized the pain involved at first...

and how long did the pain last. How did you treat it (upset )

I answered yes. Its really dumb and embarrassing and probably cliché but I used to daydream about someone from a place I used to work. It was a patron of the business and He was usually fairly nice in waking life but I would dream up scenarios in which he had some complaint or an issue with something etc. Sometimes I would be rude or snyde about addressing the issue to irritate him and he would decide to teach me a lesson and sometimes I would be good about fixing the issue and he would just purposely keep making it worse and keep making me try to fix it. This fantasy usually ends in me having to agree to get spanked to make up for it out of some convoluted reasoning that threatens my job. I would agree to get spanked but I would like it too much. I would then try to sneak off to the restroom to finish what he started but he would stop me before I could and tell me I had to let him help me to humiliate me or I couldn't finish it at all. My Yes was a safe Yes because I no longer work there and the patron in question doesn't even know who I am. He couldn't reject me or make fun of me or complicate things otherwise because he probably doesn't even remember me and I'll never see him again. hahahaha im a creep.

Oddly and sadly enough in the same place of work as the other fantasy, There was a point in time where I was the only one there for a long time and I would work sometimes 10 hour days and not have time for a break or even to go to the restroom. It was high stress during that time and I would literally fantasize about someone coming in and dragging me out of my work area and making me take the break I couldn't risk wasting time on. I did not want to pretend to be my own boss there anymore. I just wanted my boss or someone to come back and just go back to bossing me around so that everything got done right on time again and I could stop worrying about screwing things up. I managed to keep everything sort of on track in my head but I don't know how I did and It was exhausting. I would come home and masturbate fantasizing about someone forcing me to take a break. It was ridiculous how hot daydreaming about a break and a drink of water was at the time. I have a really weird way of seeing things.

Do you sometimes regret ever starting?