well wat about the bathroom and shower? does he stand outside the door or knock if you take more than a few minutes? or is there 2 bathrooms? doesn't wait for an answere? so barges in when you could be nude or undressing or something awkward like triming pubic hair or poping some zit on your ass or near down there?

Sorry was working all day.

No, but if I take too long he knocks on the door. (I take 10-15 min showers only because he wants to hurry up and shower to go to bed to get up at 4 am for work.) And with the hamper being right outside the bathroom door, I can't sneak something with me back in my room, nothing to wrap it up in. So no, i never take anything with me in the shower. I can't toy well in the shower and enjoy it anyway, I have to lie down, something that is not fun having water spray all over in your face as you're trying to relax.

And yes, dad just barges in. He has done so while I was dressing before, I yell at him for it. He never learns though. As i said, his house, his rules. Age doesn't matter, his parents did the same to him when he was may age, hell his dad held him by the throat up against the wall when my dad backtalked his did at age 24 and he lived at home with them, so yeah.

And no, I'm not allowed to go out for a night or two to stay at a motel/hotel by myself or anything either, or to spend the night at a friends. (They don't have spare rooms or anywhere for me anyway.)

So yeah, I'm lucky to toy anywhere from 3-12 times a month if at all.

Oh, besides diary stuff, if talking about blogs, I do have a toy one, but I barely update it and I should, just I only can if I'm home alone....

sounds rough..I bet you feel trapped. why do you like the animal toys so much? the dog ones really creeped me out actually turned me off

I used to Journal when I was younger. We got a Commodore 64 computer, shortly after we were married (yeah, it was only a couple of years old) and I Journaled furiously for several years.

I don't really do it anymore. But, I do keep a Sex Journal. I have a month by month school type calendar, and I record what we did, (in code) the intensity, and if I was able to orgasm or not. I also keep my menstrual cycle journal in this calendar. I also use different colored highlighters for different things, in addition to code.

When I was having serious orgasmic problems, it really helped me figure out WHY I wasn't able to, what was happening to trigger orgasms, and even at what time in my menstrual cycle I was more or less likely to be able to orgasm easily.

This was after decades of having NO problem with orgasm, when perimenopause hit me really hard.

Funny story. I brought it to my GYN's office, so I could let him know my menstrual cycle, and also when I was having problems with orgasm. He looked at the colors on the calendar and and said, "All these are sexual encounters?" He seems to have a hard time wrapping his head around the fact that we make love so often. I don't know if it's just prurient interest, or he thinks women in peri don't want sex, or older men can't have sex frequently (he's really young) or what. But, I consider showing him the calendar part of his education! SOMEBODY has to teach this young buck that people no longer in their 20s still get it on and enjoy it frequently!

Aw, honey. *CYBERHUG!* Junior High girls can be so cruel! There was one girl who was so awful to me, that I refuse to "friend" her on Facebook, (bitchy, I know, but I don't WANT to know her at all. I went years without her in my life, and I don't want her back in it.) and is the only reason I am dreading our High School reunion.

I am so sorry you had to suffer like this.

More *CYBERHUGS*

I guess I'm what people like to call me: a closet fur. I have a thing for anthros, ya know, half human half animal. Just a fantasy. That and the animal and fantasy toys have really awesome shapes and such. Sorry but human male dicks just look so boring to me.... (No offense to any guys, it's just my opinion.)

Now, would i actually get into bestiality? Hell no! There's a difference between toys and the real thing, and I am NOT crossing that line.

So far I've found I really like the horse ones though, easier than trying to stuff a knot at the bottom than if the 'knot' is at the top.

In other words, I just like the weird crap, haha.

I also want to order from this site: link

If I could, I'd get the biggest one just to put it in a display case, lol.

Me! I write! My journal owns me.

I use a datebook, too! I started that my freshman year of college. Its nice being able to flip through and see what I was doing and what I thought was important at any given day. I've always wanted to do the same with my dreams, but I don't remember dreams as well--I think it would be a pretty empty journal.