I would love to watch my partner mastubate, I find it delectable and arousing and sexy and . I doubt he feels the same way about me though. He's 30 and when I met him a couple years ago, he had a vagina phobia type of thing because of his strict religious upbringing, he supposedly was "terrified" of vaginas and he was naive, it never even occurred to him that females could orgasm or that they even masturbated so when we started being intimate long-distance, like online-phone sex, just the mention of me saying that I was touching myself immediately repulsed and disgusted him. You can imagine how bad I felt even more considering I have little self esteem. He's gotten better though, like 95% "cured" but I still wouldn't think he'd be interested in seeing me masturbate. I'm too self-conscious and with low self-esteem, I think I'm pretty ugly and at this point I've never once in my life have yet to experience feeling sexy or pretty yet so I have to work on that first. I'm not sure I could ever look sexy to him at this point even less look arousing enough touching myself in front of him if he ever wanted that.

Way too shy at this point.

it's such a turn on knowing he is watching me. it's just so mmmm. However, he can never stay away so it is never just watching by the end