The New Intimacy

Eden Lit- August 08, 2011 at 7pm: Writers Club

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Contributor: Ansley Ansley
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
LOL My Mom and I arent speaking and I have an injunction out against my Father who threatened to beat my ass for sassing my Mom (I was 38 at the time). No pity here just some hard truths. It's what shapes us into the writer's we are!
Very valid point there Airen!! And sorry about your relationship with your parents, regardless of what we did or they do or did, it still sucks.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Spoken Pandora Spoken Pandora
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Originally posted by Ivy Wilde
Sounds like a wonderful way to reach catharsis! I don't think I'm quite far enough to do that yet. I've tried writing a little bit about my mother on my anxiety/depression blog, but I have to really limit what I write or I set myself ... more
I completely understand that. I can't write much about her. I believe actually those are the only two I have ever written and completed. I write nothing of my father. I cried the whole freaking time though and had some serious anger afterwards...
08/08/2011
Contributor: Jul!a Jul!a
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Originally posted by Ansley
*hugs back* No one hurts me anymore, it's all good. I think that's why I was able to read those pieces and not go into a downward spiral. I don't know if healed is the right word...but I don't think about it much.
Coming out the other side strong is something a lot of people strive for. Kudos to you for being a strong woman
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
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Originally posted by Jul!a
Coming out the other side strong is something a lot of people strive for. Kudos to you for being a strong woman
Thank you Sam! That means a lot to me. Probably just a wee bit more than your condom nom.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
SO Spoken Pandora floored me with her poem "For You". It was exactly how I felt about Arch...totaly blown away and remade into something and someone new. With Sigel I was so young that I remember just wondering how it could beso wonderful and so scary. I tried so hard not to love Arch...afterall I was MARRIED! It was Sigel who answered my heart and said yes for me. Such an amazing time and you said it all for me.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
And just so everyone knows, my story is not fiction. It's a process my husband and I have been in for quite a long time.

I think that's why it's so raw and the language isn't as descriptive as I'm probably capable of...
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
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Originally posted by Ansley
Very valid point there Airen!! And sorry about your relationship with your parents, regardless of what we did or they do or did, it still sucks.
Yes it does but I am happier without them in my life even though it hurts like hell to admit that. They need time and space to work on themselves I can't be their "Cause Celebre" anymore they have to focus on their illnesses not on "fixing" me.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Jul!a Jul!a
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Originally posted by Ansley
Thank you Sam! That means a lot to me. Probably just a wee bit more than your condom nom.
Lol, it's a much bigger compliment, so you should definitely feel free to take it as such
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
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Originally posted by Spoken Pandora
I completely understand that. I can't write much about her. I believe actually those are the only two I have ever written and completed. I write nothing of my father. I cried the whole freaking time though and had some serious anger afterwards...
I had a lot of those moments as a teenager. I think they might be the reason why it doesn't bother me anymore. I mean, it bothers me when they come off half-cocked and do stupid shit now, but the stuff in the past? Not so much.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ivy Wilde Ivy Wilde
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Originally posted by Spoken Pandora
I completely understand that. I can't write much about her. I believe actually those are the only two I have ever written and completed. I write nothing of my father. I cried the whole freaking time though and had some serious anger afterwards...
Every once in a while when I meet somebody new, they ask about my parents and I tell them that they are dead. They always say, "I'm sorry" and depending on the situation, I will sometimes say, "I'm not."

I guess sometimes I just enjoy shocking people. It's my teeny tiny form of rebellion. I never got a chance to rebel when they were still alive.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Spoken Pandora Spoken Pandora
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
SO Spoken Pandora floored me with her poem "For You". It was exactly how I felt about Arch...totaly blown away and remade into something and someone new. With Sigel I was so young that I remember just wondering how it could beso wonderful ... more
Aww thanks Airen. That is one of my favorites. I saw myself doing all of those things as I wrote them. Hell in my head I did them and hated that I couldn't simply just say it (if that makes sense). I really felt that one. It was one of those desperate moments where it was like I need you to see my soul and sense I can't hand it over to you physically I can write it for you...
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ivy Wilde Ivy Wilde
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
SO Spoken Pandora floored me with her poem "For You". It was exactly how I felt about Arch...totaly blown away and remade into something and someone new. With Sigel I was so young that I remember just wondering how it could beso wonderful ... more
Yes! That was an intense poem. I must admit, I read very, very little poetry, but I liked it. And it did make me think about my relationship with my husband. I especially liked the line,
"I am not me
And haven’t been since I met you"

I do feel like he fundamentally changed the person that I am.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Spoken Pandora Spoken Pandora
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Originally posted by Ivy Wilde
Yes! That was an intense poem. I must admit, I read very, very little poetry, but I liked it. And it did make me think about my relationship with my husband. I especially liked the line,
"I am not me
And haven’t been since I met ... more
Ivy that is one of my favorite lines as well. I wrote it and thought, its so simple, but it carried so much weight with me. I'm glad you picked that line out...
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
Sapphire your story touched me as well because it's the same sort of shit I did to Sigel when we were young. Great story though..it actually felt catharctic to read. Like I wasn't alone, ya know?
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ivy Wilde Ivy Wilde
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Originally posted by Ansley
And just so everyone knows, my story is not fiction. It's a process my husband and I have been in for quite a long time.

I think that's why it's so raw and the language isn't as descriptive as I'm probably capable of...
Whoa! That is ... Umm.... I don't know what that is, but I can't wait to find out what happens.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
SO how did you guys like the third part of the story of Alex and his Lady?
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
Sapphire your story touched me as well because it's the same sort of shit I did to Sigel when we were young. Great story though..it actually felt catharctic to read. Like I wasn't alone, ya know?
Yeah...I think he feels like we're strong enough to go through this and we'll come out stronger on the other side of it and mine is that I don't want to let anyone get anywhere near this relationship that I've maintained and cherished and grown with since I was a teenager...the insecurity is astounding. He keeps saying he doesn't want to have sex with a woman and can't bear the thought of me being with another man...but sometimes I just get really confused.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
Do we have any ideas for next month's themes? It'll be September so we have first harvest, end of Summer beginning of Fall, Dog days of heat and stuff....
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
I just read For You, and I have to say it's true -- poetry's interpretation is different for everyone. Very powerful, I'm still not sure exactly how it makes me feel.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Spoken Pandora Spoken Pandora
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Originally posted by Ansley
Yeah...I think he feels like we're strong enough to go through this and we'll come out stronger on the other side of it and mine is that I don't want to let anyone get anywhere near this relationship that I've maintained and cherished ... more
Sapphire all I kept saying was I remember that moment. Like Airen I realized that I'm not alone. Thanking for sharing...
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ivy Wilde Ivy Wilde
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
SO how did you guys like the third part of the story of Alex and his Lady?
Very much!

I love sci fi/fantasy, and you have really created an interesting world with fascinating characters. I can't wait to see what happens next.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
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Originally posted by Ansley
Yeah...I think he feels like we're strong enough to go through this and we'll come out stronger on the other side of it and mine is that I don't want to let anyone get anywhere near this relationship that I've maintained and cherished ... more
It is confusing...it's best if you can slow it down completely and just be content to dream together. Really though, I handed my challenges so badly I can't give coherent advice!
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
Let's see...maybe breaking it off with a summer fling? Or...I always feel like this time of year is when almost all of the birthdays are over, we're all settling into being another year older, some more wiser...so maybe the first birthday where we really felt like adults?
08/08/2011
Contributor: Spoken Pandora Spoken Pandora
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Originally posted by Ansley
I just read For You, and I have to say it's true -- poetry's interpretation is different for everyone. Very powerful, I'm still not sure exactly how it makes me feel.
That's the beauty of poetry and honestly its rare for me to find someone on the exact page of what I meant. And that's cool. I love listening to what others get from it. It amazes me how everyone thinks so differently. Sometimes the feedback helps me to see my own work differently and I really appreciate that part of it.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ivy Wilde Ivy Wilde
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
Do we have any ideas for next month's themes? It'll be September so we have first harvest, end of Summer beginning of Fall, Dog days of heat and stuff....
I don't really write fiction or anything literary, I just like to read the stuff ya'll write. So I don't really have an opinion. Except I want more of Alex and Kiri.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
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Originally posted by Spoken Pandora
Sapphire all I kept saying was I remember that moment. Like Airen I realized that I'm not alone. Thanking for sharing...
I don't know whether to laugh or cry or hug you or ....sheesh, man I miss hanging with writers!
08/08/2011
Contributor: Jul!a Jul!a
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Originally posted by Ansley
Let's see...maybe breaking it off with a summer fling? Or...I always feel like this time of year is when almost all of the birthdays are over, we're all settling into being another year older, some more wiser...so maybe the first birthday ... more
I like the first birthday where we really felt like adults. That was a crappy day for me lol.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Airen Wolf Airen Wolf
(EF Review Program Mentor)
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Originally posted by Ivy Wilde
Very much!

I love sci fi/fantasy, and you have really created an interesting world with fascinating characters. I can't wait to see what happens next.
That particular story was one I wrote for Arch. it's his kinks and I think how he loves to view himself. Yes he is Alex. I am a combo of the lady and Kiri her pet. Sigel speciically asked not to be included in that one LOL Didn't work and he makes a appearance later....
08/08/2011
Contributor: Jul!a Jul!a
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Originally posted by Ivy Wilde
I don't really write fiction or anything literary, I just like to read the stuff ya'll write. So I don't really have an opinion. Except I want more of Alex and Kiri.
Yes, there's a x2 for more Alex and Kiri.
08/08/2011
Contributor: Spoken Pandora Spoken Pandora
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Originally posted by Airen Wolf
SO how did you guys like the third part of the story of Alex and his Lady?
Okay, I love these stories!!!! I reread them just to experience it all over again...lol
08/08/2011