"Mothers are all slightly insane."
Not enough time in the day
A mother is a mother, whether they are a working mom, stay at home mom, single or otherwise. Things are tough everywhere. The job is never finished. Now if you have a bank account like Angelina Jolie, and 12 nannies to clean the house, cook the food and raise your kids, well then you probably won't understand anything I'm about to say. But if you have had to call out of work for a sick child and as a result lose half of your much needed paycheck, or have even seen what they charge for daycare these days, you will totally understand where I am coming from.
There are a few reader questions I would like to answer in this article. One being: why I do what I do. Well, it’s simple. When I was working in my previous career I would take home about 800 per week after taxes. That was with at least 60 hours of work each week. Now after paying just one week of childcare, I would be left with about 300 dollars! Yes, I used to spend about $500 per week JUST on childcare alone. That was for 2 full time children and 1 special needs full time slot. And being as how I do have a special needs child, whenever he got too much for the daycare to handle, they would simply call me and tell me to come pick him up. That is just more money out the window. It was impossible. Being a single mother with bills, I had no other options. So I do what I do, for my family.
But just because I don’t pay that childcare bill anymore does not mean I am in the clear. Yes, I make good money, when I can work. I have a lot of issues with anxiety. Sometimes, I can't even force myself to get online to work. I have been through a lot in the past couple of years. Not just the typical day to day shit, but I finally broke free from an abusive crack head called my husband. But that isn't where it ended. I have spent the last 2 years continuously stressing about him finding out where we are. I have had to move my children from town to town and even out of state at one point to throw him off our trail. I know it is just a matter of time before he catches up again. And it wouldn't be a big deal if it was because he wanted a relationship with his children, but he doesn't. He wants me. His property. That is one source of my anxiety. Another, I lost my sister, he one person I could truly call my best friend and soul mate, just months ago. Sometimes, I just don’t want to work. Other times, the kids give me reasons why I can’t. I have a better chance of getting pregnant from my virtual flings than getting a night out! That is enough to drive any person crazy, mother or not!
Being a cam girl is just like any other job. You have to show up and work in order to get the money. Granted, if I don't show up, I don’t lose my job, but I don’t get paid either. But I would much rather be able to spend my nights working, get my kids up and see them off to school, and sleep while they are away, just so I can spend the rest of the days with them and still get the bills paid. I had the career where I sent the kids to school and was home in time to put them to bed. That wasn't enough for me. So, before anyone tries to judge a person by what they do for money, they should realize, sometimes, it’s just a mother, providing for her children.
** And to the wonderful person who sent their not so nice comment about me to my inbox, until you walk a mile in my shoes, or the CEO in her ivory business tower, or even the whore on the corner, don’t act like you know the right path for me, or anyone else. Everyone has their decisions to make in life, based on their own life. I do this to support my children and be here for them, not because I am lost, or broken, or out of control. I am a good mother and I would do anything for my children. Once you understand that, you will understand why I do it all. **
Dressed for suck-cess
One thing that bothers me about being a cam girl is the dress up, well the little bit that I do wear. Seriously, does no one see the irony? I spend a good amount of time setting up my room, creating the ambiance, getting my make-up on, getting dressed in my sexy Eden lingerie and doing my hair...for what? So someone can come in my room, watch me strip and oil myself up, messing up my sheets and the oil screwing up my make-up. Then I rail myself with some inanimate object, turning my styled hair into a just fucked look, just to start it all over again!
Yes, I make good money doing it, and thus really have no room to bitch. But sometimes it’s annoying. It's all so repetitive and yet each one of these guys actually thinks that he is the only one that can make you cum. He is the only one that can make you holler out in pleasure. Really people? Come on now? Do you really think I would be online every night, well, most nights at least, if I was just waiting for you? If I was, trust me, I would have a whole lot more issues than I do already!
When it comes to solo play I fucking dominate. There isn’t anyone that can please me like me! I am totally, undeniably, unbelievably amazing, if I do say so myself. But when it comes to these asshats, I think I might be getting better at faking an orgasm than I am at actually giving myself one. Now that’s just wrong. The way I always figured it was if I had to fake it, you got to fix it. And I made sure you did. Now, I am expected to orgasm every 10 minutes for 4-6 hours straight! Well, let me tell you...that’s more exhausting than having a political conversation with my douche bag ex-husband. Granted, you don’t know what he was like, but let me put it this way, there were 2 things the fucktard was always doing, talking politics and kicking my ass. And if I had my choice, I would take the ass kicking. Usually it would end that way anyway, so better to just skip to the point and get it over with. Anyway, back to topic!
I love working online. I love working when I want. I love being able to have the adult social interaction that I only had when I was camming, before Eden of course. I do what I want, when I want. If I am in the mood, I do what's asked, and if I'm not, I don’t. Simple as that! Hell, sometimes I even get online in my 'not-even-close-to-sexy' flannel pajamas and just deal with my regulars because I just don’t have the energy in me to do anything else. And that’s why I do it. Because I can. Besides, being a VERY single woman with nothing but a little sexpertise and a box full of tricks, sometimes it is fun to have a little kink with someone other than myself! Anyone that has read my reviews knows exactly what it takes to get me off, so with that being said, if you see me at the grocery store, feel free to pick me up!
Session insider: Shush...Don't talk BB!
This guy is one of my favorites. I don’t actually know his real name, or anything else about him. He just likes me to sit quietly and not look at the camera. This is usually the time when I pick up my book and just go about my business. He likes to see me being me, as if he was literally peeking through my window.
He never turns on his camera but I'm pretty sure we all know what he is doing. He doesn't type and he doesn't want me to say or do anything that has to do with the computer. Most of the time, I comply. I just read, or watch TV. He is usually in the room for about a half hour which is usually a good 60 bucks or so for my cut. So who am I to argue? But every now and then I will screw with him by getting up and getting changed into my ugliest pajamas I own, just to test the limits. I know, what a way to chase away the money. But it doesn't matter. He wants that true voyeur experience! He always stays.
And just before he leaves he says, "Thanks BB, that was great. I made a mess, going to clean up, see you next time!"
And then he leaves before I can say anything. Now, anyone that knows me in my line of work, members included, know that I hate being called BB. Seriously, how hard is it to spell out the word baby. It's just 2 extra letters! But with this guy, I have to let it slide. Not because I don't get a chance to speak, but because it is such easy work. Who would complain? Of course he is one of my favorites. I don’t have to do a damn thing, except pretend he doesn't exist! What woman wouldn’t like that?
Until Next Time!
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