The Power of Anticipation
A wise young woman once said to me, “The only thing hotter than hooking up is not hooking up.” I found out how right she was when, in my sophomore year, my first real relationship was crumbling just as a particular freshman started spending more and more time in my room. Frosh was sweet, looked great in a wifebeater, and, as I found out while under the influence at a party, kissed amazingly well. I went back to test the theory, hoping against hope that my assessment was strictly the result of New York’s finest local produce; I was so, so wrong. After my proper relationship ended, I found myself taking naps after classes with Frosh in my tiny dorm room. I had been the one who pushed him against the wall at the party for a sensual kiss delicately flavored with Malibu and THC, I had invited myself to his room under the pretense of watching V for Vendetta for the hundredth time, just so I could kiss him again; I needed to know his attraction was about more than my being a pushy broad. So our naps would involve me lying on top of him, breathing in his scent, cologne mixed with cucumber melon lotion, feeling his hands on my back and his hard-on against my leg. When he would leave, I needed a cold shower.
I learned an important lesson about the power of anticipation from Frosh, even though we only sort of consummated our, for lack of a better word, relationship. The half-baked attempted at fingering left me cold; I liked Frosh better when he kept his hands to himself because the waiting game was a heady rush. Sadly, the slow burn of sensuality gets a little lost these days, an analog concept in a digital world. The sexual has gotten lost in the quest for sex.
I learned an important lesson about the power of anticipation from Frosh, even though we only sort of consummated our, for lack of a better word, relationship. The half-baked attempted at fingering left me cold; I liked Frosh better when he kept his hands to himself because the waiting game was a heady rush. Sadly, the slow burn of sensuality gets a little lost these days, an analog concept in a digital world. The sexual has gotten lost in the quest for sex.
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