"I would rather have him watch it and take care of his own needs, than go look elsewhere for satisfaction."
If it's good for him--let him watch it.
I have never had issues with my man watching porn. Though it was not something I was interested in, I was never threatened by my husband watching DVD's or other forms of adult movies. My friends and I have had many debates about porn and its role in a relationship, and I have always stuck to my guns about my feelings. "Let them watch, it keeps them from looking elsewhere", "Men use porn and pictures, women use books and imagination", or "If they are watching it and taking care of their own--they will not go out looking for someone else to take care of it for them". I was just not into watching the movies myself.
Oh, I tried. There were many times my husband would suggest watching a movie and since I did not want him to feel rejected, I agreed. I just faced the other way or made up a position that would leave the TV on the backside of my body. When that did not work, I proceeded to give him oral with my eyes closed (no easy task), or zone out and ignore the screen. Of course, in my mind, I had tried to enjoy it but it was just not my thing. I was justified in my opinion, and gave it a 'fair chance'. I was still a good girl.
What does being a good girl had to do with this issue? A lot - in the era I was raised in, a good girl did not watch porn or xxx movies. They were said to have portrayed women in a degrading manner, the women were being used for the men's pleasure only and it was disgusting, immoral and not right. Looking back on some of the classics and the limited niches, I do tend to agree with most of those generalizations. Or at least I see where some of them originated.
Jumping forward to 2005; my husband really enjoyed watching his movies, owned about 7 or 8 VHS tapes and he wanted to get a couple DVD’s. I told him to go right ahead, I honestly did not care. Just because I was not into it did not mean I had any issues with him watching the movies. I promise!! I really had no opinion on his preferences and movie watching when he was alone.
We went on like that for another year or so, occasionally I could not reject his wishes to watch the movies when we were having sex. I did not want to hurt him or make him feel bad so I figured out many creative ways in which I did not have to tune in on them. Okay, there were a few times I peeked and might have kind of liked what I saw, but I sure as hell was not admitting to it!!
Then he tried buying a couple for me! Oh, my--what to do now? I really did not want to hurt him; I know how vulnerable you are suggesting anything sexually. You are open wide for rejection and are hoping for acceptance. Honestly, I felt pushed and trapped but was really trying to let him know that just because he enjoyed this diversion did not mean it was for me as well. My mind had been made up, for many, many, years!
Oh, I tried. There were many times my husband would suggest watching a movie and since I did not want him to feel rejected, I agreed. I just faced the other way or made up a position that would leave the TV on the backside of my body. When that did not work, I proceeded to give him oral with my eyes closed (no easy task), or zone out and ignore the screen. Of course, in my mind, I had tried to enjoy it but it was just not my thing. I was justified in my opinion, and gave it a 'fair chance'. I was still a good girl.
What does being a good girl had to do with this issue? A lot - in the era I was raised in, a good girl did not watch porn or xxx movies. They were said to have portrayed women in a degrading manner, the women were being used for the men's pleasure only and it was disgusting, immoral and not right. Looking back on some of the classics and the limited niches, I do tend to agree with most of those generalizations. Or at least I see where some of them originated.
Jumping forward to 2005; my husband really enjoyed watching his movies, owned about 7 or 8 VHS tapes and he wanted to get a couple DVD’s. I told him to go right ahead, I honestly did not care. Just because I was not into it did not mean I had any issues with him watching the movies. I promise!! I really had no opinion on his preferences and movie watching when he was alone.
We went on like that for another year or so, occasionally I could not reject his wishes to watch the movies when we were having sex. I did not want to hurt him or make him feel bad so I figured out many creative ways in which I did not have to tune in on them. Okay, there were a few times I peeked and might have kind of liked what I saw, but I sure as hell was not admitting to it!!
Then he tried buying a couple for me! Oh, my--what to do now? I really did not want to hurt him; I know how vulnerable you are suggesting anything sexually. You are open wide for rejection and are hoping for acceptance. Honestly, I felt pushed and trapped but was really trying to let him know that just because he enjoyed this diversion did not mean it was for me as well. My mind had been made up, for many, many, years!
great article thanks
Thanks for writing; I really enjoyed this article. (BTW, I think you mean "epiphany" instead of "epitome.")