This was my first venture into buying my own high-quality sex toys. I experimented with a partner's toys last summer, but I have not been sexually active - not even masturbating frequently - since August, when I was pretty badly violated. I decided to finally give it a go and try to reclaim my sexuality, and this toy worked wonders. It was the smallest that I got in a kit containing this, Eden's travel bunny, and the Magic Force wand.

As someone who is relatively picky on a sensory level, I found this toy's design to be fantastic. It does not require an external charger, although it does come with a cord in case you do not want to put the built-in USB directly into a USB port, and the USB is covered by a white screw-on cap. The body of the vibrator is pink-magenta, smooth silicone. Between the USB and the head of the vibrator, there is a section that bends slightly, which makes it easy to use in either hand and easy to maneuver to exactly where you want it. The toy has two buttons at the base of the pink silicone. One is the power button - when you press it, the toy turns on and a red light indicates that it is on. The other button changes the vibration setting. This toy has an incredible number of settings and it is fairly easy to adjust the setting while you are using it. Since this is a silicone toy, it is not compatible with silicone-based lubes.

At first, I was so excited to try it that I forgot to put any lube on it. It still brought me to a clitoral orgasm in a matter of minutes, and that was while actively trying to hold back. When my clit got too sensitive, I moved the vibrator down to my vagina and pushed it in just a little, while I waited for the sensitivity to dull a little. After I added lube and went at it again, adjusting the vibration setting as I went, I almost fell off the chair I was sitting on. I tried fingering myself to add to the pleasure, but the vibrator was overpowering and more than enough on its own. It brought me to another orgasm within less than the time it took for a music video I was listening to to finish. After the second O in the same night, I called it a night. Clean-up was super easy. I used some vaginal wipes to clean visible residue off and then wiped it down with a washcloth and Eden's toy cleaner.

This toy made me feel safe and comfortable with myself, which is sometimes difficult as a nonbinary person trying to navigate the gendered world of sex and masturbation. It gave me the most intense orgasms I have ever had from masturbation alone, and the lack of deep penetration helped me avoid the gender dysphoria and trauma flashbacks that I sometimes get while masturbating or attempting to masturbate.