weird toy, but fun time

When I first saw it online, it was weird; it looked like a bumpy finger thing on a vibrator moving up and down. Something I know in the past, I would have never thought about trying. I wanted to try something new to spice up my playtime. So I have chosen to buy it for the fun of it. I was hoping for a new, fun toy for my toybox.
When I received it in the mail, I had purchased other toys with it, but this was the first one I pulled out of the box and put batteries into to see if it would work. I also wanted to just hold it to see what it felt like in my hand. It still came off as weird to me, but I want to try it out, so why not have a go.

It was nice when I was playing solo, but I needed some help, so my partner joined me and helped me get the toy in the right place, playing with my clit with it as he did so. We kissed and played around with the toy. This all was in the first test. We started on the bed laying down to get a nice baseline unless it needs to be tried somewhere else because if it doesn't work in the way I would normally use it, then it's not for me. But in time I might try it in the shower to try something since it is waterproof.
I did like it the first time because it made me go off, and my partner and I had a lot of fun trying out a new toy. Thinking about it though, it was mostly him who helped me find how to use it right so I could get off.

After using it a few more times by myself and with my partner, and it's a nice toy, but it's not as much of a thrill as I first thought. The size and texture are good, but it just not the toy for me after all. It's very hard to get it positioned right for me.

I think this toy has a moderate vibration, but that works great for me. The vibrations go through the toy but tend to be on the tips, with the beads and the rabbit ear being the most intense vibrations.
I have tried both the beaded part and the rabbit ear of the clit to see what worked and what didn't. The beaded part was OK, but the rabbit ear thrilled me to no end when I first tried it, making me go off from that at least once.

It was a nice orgasm that I needed and helped me feel better afterward. And I think my partner was right, I needed to have a good orgasm to relax. I tend to not have a lot of sex because of how I was brought up, so I think this might be a new friend I needed.