Oh. My. God.

That is what I thought when I pulled the Hottie Xtra from the box. It was huge-not long, but so thick! It looked like a blue rubber soup can.

That is what I thought when I poured lube over the dildo and began to spread it over the surface. My fingers barely met each other around the girth of this thing. The concept of a penis looked misshapen it was so large. I had never touched or fucked anything this big, or even near this big.

That is what I thought when I tried to put it inside me. I physically could not insert the Hottie Xtra. I lubed it up over and over. I turned myself on; I made myself cum. Nothing loosened me enough for this huge dildo.

I managed to struggle the head inside me. The ripping edge of it stretching me sent pain up my nerves. All orgasmic momentum was lost in that instance of discomfort. I imagine if I had been sober when I lost my virginity, that sensation would have stirred memories of my first time.

It hurt, and it was simply too big for my body.

I imagine the internal vibrator would have been amazing had I been able to get it inside me. I had never owned a dildo that had a vibrator integrated within it, and the concept had really excited me. I tried turning on the little bullet and rubbing the huge head of the dildo on my clit, but the pain it originally inflicted infected the feeling of it in my hand. I had to just abandon the toy.

Looking at the Hottie Xtra, I had thought I could have taken it. I am not stranger to sex or different penises. I have had my share; my partner had just worn me out for a week while he was home. Yet my body simply could not accommodate it. I could not force it in without hurting myself.

If nothing else, the Hottie Xtra assured me that I am not too loose.