Vixen Creations' Lone Star is easily up there in my top five most difficult toys to review. After reading so many glowing write-ups on this dildo and salivating over its double-take worthy realistic detail and mouth watering size...I finally got my chance to try it. I planned for its arrival like a new baby - mapping out scenes in my head for how and where I'd use it, asking my partner repeatedly if he was as excited as I was. Frankly, it was a little weird. But those of you that know those deep G-spot orgasms that cause you to black out for a second or two during climax that you can only get from a big, gorgeous cock like this? You probably understand my weirdness.

When the Lone Star finally got here I didn't even want to use it at first. As many Vixskin first-timers will tell you, you seriously just want to sit there and play with it for a while. Vixen Creations' Vixskin is a dual density silicone design that is aimed at mimicking real flesh as closely as possible. How does it work? In a Vixskin toy like Lone Star you have a very firm, hard silicone core that almost acts as the skeleton or spine of the dildo; it gives the toy support and allows it to stand tall and erect. If you squish this dildo in your hand you can only squish so far. After about a half inch you reach the inner core which is hard enough to stop your squeeze dead in its tracks. The core extends to just under the head, so the tip is completely constructed of plush, yummy squeeze-able silicone.

This other layer of silicone that I've just described - the soft, plush silicone - is what's intended to emulate skin. As I (roughly) estimated before, it feels about a half of an inch thick. It covers the core and is sculpted into rippling wrinkles, undulating veins, a thick swollen corona and head that you can almost feel throbbing when you touch it...I mean, it's beautiful. Does it actually feel like flesh? This is up for debate. In my opinion it doesn't, but I think it comes about as close as you can with a hygienic material like silicone. If you rinse it under hot water before inserting it will absorb the heat and enter your body feeling eerily life-like, though it's still not fooling me. In either case I'm not complaining; whatever this stuff feels like to you, you're going to want to touch it and you're not going to want to stop. Lone Star is the only dildo I've ever received that I felt the uncontrollable desire to place in my mouth.

Yes. I actually put this in my mouth and I gave it a brief blowjob. And I loved every second of it.

So why is this a hard review to write if I actually have to concertedly restrain myself from rambling on and on about how arousing it was to go down on a dildo? Because as much cock worship as this baby inspires in theory, when I put it into use things take a turn for the much more challenging. You see, the Lone Star is easily one of the most monstrous offerings from Vixen - next to Randy there are not many bigger. From base to tip you have 7" of cock, and the shaft itself is a little bit over 6" in length. The real kicker however, is the diameter of this dildo which is just a hair under 2 inches. TWO!

I didn't come into owning this behemoth blind, though. I own the regular Vixen Johnny which has the same diameter and while it's definitely a stretch, I absolutely love it. Sure, it's not an every day dick but on the occasions that I pull it out it rocks my world. I was truly surprised to find I didn't take to the Lone Star like Johnny. The difference between the two is that Lone Star (by virtue of its special Vixskin composition) is H-E-A-V-Y like no one's business. It's a pound of penis and that my friends is no joke. Though I warmed up extensively before using this, the first three times I tried this I had to remove it after a few minutes because of the painful stretching feeling. Thrusting was absolutely out of the question. Squishy as the outer layer is, it didn't quite flex and yield to my body like I had hoped. Getting this in and keeping it there was like trying to wriggle into jeans that don't fit anymore...just...painful and frustrating.

Something about the Lone Star just wasn't working for me. It was too much of...something. So I put it away for a few weeks. I came back to it recently determined to give it another try, and I actually have grown to appreciate it more with a little time and distance. For me the key has been warming both myself AND the toy up extensively before using. I soaked the Lone Star in a large glass bowl of water I heated in the microwave for about two minutes (to the heat I usually drink my coffee or tea at) before using it this time around. I had read in another review that heat made the outer layer more squishy for the user, and by golly it actually does. I warmed myself up by watching some of my favorite porn actresses while using other toys on myself, and by the time I was arousing to the point of needing desperately to cum, I pulled the Lone Star out of the hot water.

After letting it cool just a little so I wouldn't hurt myself (seriously, don't wanna burn your sensitive mucous membranes!) I slathered Lone Star in water based lube (no silicone based lubes as these negatively interact with silicone toys!) I teased myself with just the head - driving myself crazy for a good five minutes. When I was finally panting and moaning audibly I inserted Lone Star very slowly. YES, it still hurt a little but YES it finally felt GOOD!!! While this toy is absolutely straight as an arrow without any G-spot curve, the size did apply a good amount of pressure to my G-spot and with some light, shallow thrusting I came hard and rather fast as well.

I've only used this toy once since my return to it, and I definitely consider it more of a treat for special occasions where I want to push the envelope and challenge myself. It's not an every day dildo; mostly of the time it sits regally in the plastic box Vixen tucked it into back in the factory. You'll want to make sure you store this carefully; in the heat the soft outer layer can become slightly misshapen if it's pressed against something too hard. I think the plastic box is great for storing it in because it also keeps it from negatively interacting with jelly, rubber and other non-100% silicone toys. Remember to keep 100% silicone separate from these other soft materials otherwise you may find them warped or melted! The Lone Star also attracts lint like a Swiffer so a plastic Ziploc or toy pouch at the very least is required.

Lone Star is completely non-porous so it can be easily cleaned. For every day cleansing you can lather it with antibacterial soap and hot water, or you can boil it for 3-4 minutes for a thorough sanitizing. Be sure to clean your toy if you are sharing it or going from anal to vaginal. Other than that? Enjoy the hell out of this thing (if you're up to the challenge!) because it's truly one of a kind.

I still like this but...it doesn't get a lot of action, unfortunately. I was doing a toy cleaning just the other day and went through and washed all my Vixskin toys. After washing this, I was reminiscing about how hunky and gorgeous it was. It got me thinkin' maybe it was time to give the Lone Star another shot. After lots of warm up and copious amounts of lube, I worked this guy in, but still couldn't thrust much with him. His thick base leaves my inner labia feeling sore even after just leaving him in and rocking him, let alone thrusting. Sadly, thrusting is exactly what I love to do with most dildos.

Still a keeper, but more for use on my partner and less for myself. One gorgeous cock though, hands down.