I don’t recall whose idea it was, not originally. Was it me, looking up with his cum on my mouth and giggling, “I wish I could show you how much fun that is”? Or him, looking down, wiping a drop off my cheek, and breathing, “I wish I could feel what you feel when you suck me”?

But one of us suggested, and other one acted, and the next time I saw him I was already kitted out, hot and harnessed and just waiting for that moment when I added the cock to my newfound regalia.

In place, the harness felt great; it also felt natural. The straps didn’t bite, and they weren’t likely to slip. The design ... well, I chose pink because it isn’t black, and nylon because it isn’t leather. Maybe later I’ll venture into more expensive territory (the Driver Harness intrigues me) but right now I’m a beginner, and this was perfect for my needs. A few reviews warn that, close-up, it doesn't look so good. But close-up, I'd hope someone has more things on their mind (okay... in their mouth) than the construction of my harness.

Plus I wasn’t dressed to impress the guy. I just wanted to know what a blowjob felt like.

We were standing, caressing, but all of the while I was aware of the toy that was pressed against his thigh, and ready for the moment when his hand slid down my stomach to meet it. I do not know, because I’ve never asked, whether he had ever done anything like this before... and “like this,” I mean with either past girlfriend or boy. But I stepped back and watched his hand enfolding my “cock,” and felt an unexpected thrill as he started to jerk it.

Physically... I don’t know. I could feel what he was doing from the motion of his arm, and his kisses grew more urgent as his hand increased its pace. And that was turning me on so much that I wasn’t even thinking about whether I could feel it on my pussy. That, after all, is what the manuals say should happen, but seriously. Who reads the manuals? Go for what feels good, or in this case looks better. And as he sank to his knees, still caressing that cock, this looked good.

I was wearing a Sensa-feel Hot Rod. I’d shopped around, too, in search of a gel that might replicate the natural taste of a cock... you’d have thought, with all the different flavors on the market, that somebody would have thought of one that tasted of the very thing you wanted to taste in the first place. No luck. But I don’t think that it mattered.

He was licking the dildo, but his eyes were on mine, boring in, burning, watching my face. Fuck, this was amazing. And again, it’s visual. I wasn't even especially aware that one finger had slipped up inside me. All of my attention was focussed on what I had inside him, and when he grabbed my ass and pulled me closer, so he was all but deep throating 6.5 inches of silicone (I’m still not sure how he got his mouth round it... I know I can’t!), I wasn’t even thinking as my hands gripped his hair, and suddenly I was fucking his mouth as hard as I love him to do to me.

Awkwardly, passingly, the thought came to mind - how does this end? Do I just fake that I’m cumming, with a masculine roar? And then that didn’t matter because I was cumming for real, pushed to the edge by the sight of him knelt there, his face a mask of happiness and love, his mouth jammed full and yet smiling. I staggered back, and his mouth was still reaching, as though starving for the final drops of the orgasm that we'd shared.

“I felt you cumming,” he gasped as we crashed on the floor. And then... “and I’d swear I tasted you cumming as well.” Which we both agreed was impossible, and we never mentioned it again. But you know what? I believe him, because there’s so much more to sex than what we do with our bodies, and so much more to its reality than what we see and feel happening.

I am NOT going to ascribe to this harness some bizarre mystic quality; there was no magical transformation took place, where he became me and I became him. But any toy that allows you to experience something different, and to do so in a way that transcends simply playtime, is always going to live at the top of my list.

And until I find that gel I was talking of... I love, love, love this harness.