Gags have always been a little frightening to me. The thought of losing my voice, especially during D/s play when it might be needed to utter a safe word, makes me cringe a little. Still my curiosity and the fact I am a screamer certainly add to the allure of being gagged. So I was very eager to try out the Beginner Ball Gag by Tantus from EdenFantasys.

This sex toy looks like a big, pearly white silicone pacifier with soft pink straps. The straps snap into place at the sides and secure around the back of your head with Velcro. When placed in your mouth it feels comfortable and is completely tasteless. If you're really hesitant about being gagged, you can use it without the straps enabling you to simply spit it out at will.

At the time I tried it, I was tied to a dresser in front of a mirror, and a little insecure about further limiting my ability to communicate. I asked to just hold it in my mouth with the straps open. The first thing I noticed was that I loved how it looked. There was something about having my mouth filled that really added to my feeling of submissiveness. With my wild, blazing eyes, tousled hair, open lips hugging the outer mouthpiece, and drool running down my chin, I looked hot, and that made me even wetter. The fact I couldn't really scream, my voice so muffled, let me focus more on being in the moment. It made every crack of the belt more intense, and since we were in a hotel, this time we didn't have worry about our scene being interrupted; I hate when that happens.

I found it very comfortable to hold in my mouth for a good length of time; probably close to thirty minutes. Your lips can rest in the indentation in front of the bulbous part or you can bite down on the ball. I bit down hard on it several times and it looks no worse for the wear.

While I didn't ever have it strapped on during play, I experimented with it afterwards and I find that the strap slips off, so if you really wanted a gag that you couldn't remove, this is probably not the one for you. I think having my hair in a pony tail and securing it to hair band would keep it in place; I will give that a try next time.

When I originally saw the description of this product, I laughed, "Beginner gag, ha, who needs to ramp up to a gag?" But actually, I am the perfect example of why a beginner mouth gag is a great product. I loved my gag and can't wait to use this adult toy again.