Hi all, I’m looking for something that might not exist.

I’m an ace trans man who has had no surgeries, am a virgin other than with toys by myself, have cerebral palsy that makes my muscles very tight, and am naturally very tiny at 4’9” and 104 pounds.

So far only wands really work for me, so I have a ton of toys that I’ve bought and tried and they just don’t work. Anyway, I kind of want to try vaginal penetration even though penetration scares me because I’m afraid of pain.

I’ve done vaginal penetration with a clitoral pinpoint vibrator before and while it worked and didn’t hurt, it wasn’t strong enough for me.

My question is this; are there dildos that are less than 1 inch around that I could try? Someone on here suggested sounding rods and while it sounded like a great idea and I felt dumb for not thinking of it myself, they either don’t curve (think g-spot), don’t vibrate, or are silicone, which I love, but seems like it might make insertion more difficult when my body already doesn’t like to cooperate.

Thank you for all your help.