Aww, I am so sorry. I love you Chili. I am only 6ish months into celibacy and i do know how you feel. Luckily for me I have two small children who keep me distracted most of the time, and who are small enough that I can let them fall asleep in my bed and move them to their own. This means I get a ton of cuddles. Just not adult cuddles, I really want to be able to hold onto somebody for more than 30 second intervals. I am still at the point where all I can think about is the second they open their mouth and I have to deal with them. So that helps.

I hope that you get through this without too many mistakes. One or two wont hurt ya as long as you are careful, but if you are determined to be by yourself for a while, as I know I am, just make sure it's what you really want.

Lots of love hun!

ya I never thought I would find someone...It was very lonely I wouldn't do the friends with benefits either....Yea I wanted sex too...I didn't date until 19 because I never found someone I trusted enough and such.I can understand.I couldn't imagine being without him now. I still get lonely some days because not every week I get to spend time with him...some weeks twice a week outside work. I know more than you or peole with long distance relationships but until it becomes my situation I'm not used to that so thats why I still get lonely especially when he takes a whole month vacation.

I don't know what you should do but if it happened to me I would watch more porn,read sexy books and buy some stuff off eden

I'm about a year and a half into being celibate myself, and I understand entirely what you mean about missing that touch of a lover, the permission to snuggle into his/her side and know that you will be cuddled back. I'm sure that it is the most difficult thing about being single/celibate, and I have found that, honestly, it hasn't gotten better for me with time. For a while I even considered going back to my ex who had cheated on me and made me feel like nothing I did made me worthy of his undivided attention, ever. I've found that throwing myself into my interests (cooking, my friends and family, reading...) helps me fend off the feeling of overwhelming loneliness. (A few good orgasms before bed helps flood the brain with all those happy-feeling-inducing chemicals, and a good pity-party complete with my favorite ice cream has made the worst seem far more manageable).

from a guys point of view, stay true to yourself physical wants cant lead the heart youll find what you need when youre ready i know how it feels to want ones arms around you

*Hugs, hugs and more hugs*

I hope you will find some affection, and soon from a decent guy.
I don't want you to get hurt or anything, but we're always here to talk.

You're an amazing, kickass strong person. I think somebody will notice besides us.

Don't act on it. Wait for things to be right all around, before you act. Things could be made up to get to the end point and you would have so much more hurt living a lie.

I haven't been in a relationship in almost 6 years and believe me it's torture. I've come close to making massive errors in judgement (i.e. sleeping with close friends and virtual strangers just to have some sort of human contact, no matter hoow brief) but the end result is always the same. At the very last second I have a moment of clarity when I see the truth about that person and I discover something about myself. Try to stay strong and find an effective distraction.