My fantasy (that I wish could be reality) is to have my wife indulge me with sharing her ass. She has known for many years this is my fantasy, and on a few rare occasions, she has offered or been willing to try. Most of those attempts were half hearted at best, so she was not relaxed enough. When I could tell she was not turned on, I would stop trying. There have been probably four successes over the years, but one stands out from all the rest. Almost five years ago, We were out of town and she had a few glasses of wine. She asked for it and I did the best I could to get her ready with what I had. It was amazing!

After that we have never found the magic. For the most part she is very negative if I bring it up. I want to do it right for her, so I have bought good lubes and toys to prep. She knows I have them but she never asks, and I don't want to force them on her. Clearly I want this for me, but nothing would get me off more than if I could please her with it. I really believe she could enjoy it if she would loosen up. I will sneak in a rub and one knuckle penetration during oral and she gets off. I even lick her there during or right after a shower.

My heart almost beats out of my chest when I fantasize about her begging for it in her butt. I imagine all the time having her lay on top of me, sliding me in, and playing with a vibe on her clit or DP with a dildo. That fantasy I haven't ever had the courage to share with her.

I ask her from time to time what her fantasies are, and she acts like she doesn't really think about it. It would be exciting to have her suggest anything that is a bit kinky. I have accepted that she is much more vanilla than me. We do watch some porn together once or twice a month, about the same with toys, but as hard as I've tried, I can't stop thinking how great it would be to have anal be part of our sex life. I am doing my best to respect her and keep the fantasy to myself.