So after almost 9 yrs it happened. I must admit that the relationship has been going for a few years through a bit of situations with kids, extended family issues, and a mayor even with my son that it was so painful to me, that caused me to have an emotional and mental breakdown. I was Baker acted 3 times and ever attempted against my own life. After all that happened I actually don’t remember much of about 2 yrs of my life, which was when All happened. It has cost me a great amount of work to get back to where I can once more enjoy simple things. While all that was happening my partner took over everything because I was no even able to drive myself to a Dr appointment. He says we were still sexually great and I recall we were both having a guy join us every other Saturday in bed. I don’t recall exactly what happened but my partner and I were having a big argument. ( Just the 2 of us) and somehow it escalated and someone call the police. I was escorted by the officer to a near by hotel to spend the night. Needless to say our guy, heard about it from my partner and he called me to see how I was doing and if I needed anything. To make the story short he ended up coming over that one night and we had sex according to what my partner keeps telling me. I swear I can’t recall. That happened over 4 yrs ago. We no longer sleep with the other guy and I have NEVER played with anyone else without my partner been part of it.
Now, my relationship has turned into hell. I’ve been called every name on the books and then some. I’ve been yelled t in front of people and Room mate (just that), my partner has over time gotten overwhelming to me, he yells at me, tell me how to speak, think, I get lectured by him every day about what I’ve done or said wrong, I can’t go out with friends because he immediately wants me back home because according to him I don’t spend enough time with him. I mean I don’t have but 2 gay guys that I go only to the beach in the morning to walk, maybe but once a month. He would rather have me next to him sitting in the bed all day lecturing me than actually goin and doing somewith me. Which now I do t want to do anything with him. Sexually he has blocked me because instructions and expect before doing anything to the point that i would rather just give him a hand job and finish it. I mean, I’ve gone from very sexual to nothing at all. On top of everything he tells me one day that he feels he’s trap in his body but that he actually feels more like a woman. I was like WTF!!!
I was already feeling totally unattached to him and now he tells me this? Against my instincts I helped him to dress up which by the way we are talking about a guy who used to lift weights and was once a cop. I’ve tried to understand and have question myself why not help him. At one point he even said that if I wanted he would have re assignment surgery done. But that I would have to treat him and sexually want him and take him as I once was with a GF. I gag every time I think about him telling me that.
Needless to say there is no more sexual attraction on my part. One day I opened my mouth and told him to go get a GF. I can care less if he does but not while he’s begging and nagging me to get in bed with him and much less that he denied talking and more with not one but a few females. My days go by getting 100’s of texts from him insulting me and asking for another chance at the same time. He is constantly telling me that I’m a slut, a whore, a cunt and a cheater because of what happened over 4 yrs ago.
I now finally opened up my eyes and I’ve been telling him that I want out. But he refuses and tell me I will never be happy without him. Can you believe that? Anyway., I just arrived yesterday from visiting a friend for 10 days and from the moment I arrived home he’s has been relentless on me. Asking me to have sex, and for a break once more. But the moment he doesn’t have te answer he wants he gets verbally aggressive and confrontational.
As I’ve been packing my stuff little by little I now sleep in a separate room, so I remembered that a bag o my favorite toys were in his closet. Big mistake to ask for them. While I was gone he had someone over and used them with her (he can keep them now). I know I must get out of her like yesterday because last night u felt he can get physical at any moment. But I’m tired of been called names. I guess what I’m asking is what to tell him do he will shut up? He takes no responsibility for anything and tells me I’m making things up but te evidence was in the shower.
Now, my relationship has turned into hell. I’ve been called every name on the books and then some. I’ve been yelled t in front of people and Room mate (just that), my partner has over time gotten overwhelming to me, he yells at me, tell me how to speak, think, I get lectured by him every day about what I’ve done or said wrong, I can’t go out with friends because he immediately wants me back home because according to him I don’t spend enough time with him. I mean I don’t have but 2 gay guys that I go only to the beach in the morning to walk, maybe but once a month. He would rather have me next to him sitting in the bed all day lecturing me than actually goin and doing somewith me. Which now I do t want to do anything with him. Sexually he has blocked me because instructions and expect before doing anything to the point that i would rather just give him a hand job and finish it. I mean, I’ve gone from very sexual to nothing at all. On top of everything he tells me one day that he feels he’s trap in his body but that he actually feels more like a woman. I was like WTF!!!
I was already feeling totally unattached to him and now he tells me this? Against my instincts I helped him to dress up which by the way we are talking about a guy who used to lift weights and was once a cop. I’ve tried to understand and have question myself why not help him. At one point he even said that if I wanted he would have re assignment surgery done. But that I would have to treat him and sexually want him and take him as I once was with a GF. I gag every time I think about him telling me that.
Needless to say there is no more sexual attraction on my part. One day I opened my mouth and told him to go get a GF. I can care less if he does but not while he’s begging and nagging me to get in bed with him and much less that he denied talking and more with not one but a few females. My days go by getting 100’s of texts from him insulting me and asking for another chance at the same time. He is constantly telling me that I’m a slut, a whore, a cunt and a cheater because of what happened over 4 yrs ago.
I now finally opened up my eyes and I’ve been telling him that I want out. But he refuses and tell me I will never be happy without him. Can you believe that? Anyway., I just arrived yesterday from visiting a friend for 10 days and from the moment I arrived home he’s has been relentless on me. Asking me to have sex, and for a break once more. But the moment he doesn’t have te answer he wants he gets verbally aggressive and confrontational.
As I’ve been packing my stuff little by little I now sleep in a separate room, so I remembered that a bag o my favorite toys were in his closet. Big mistake to ask for them. While I was gone he had someone over and used them with her (he can keep them now). I know I must get out of her like yesterday because last night u felt he can get physical at any moment. But I’m tired of been called names. I guess what I’m asking is what to tell him do he will shut up? He takes no responsibility for anything and tells me I’m making things up but te evidence was in the shower.
