I think it's crazy how in the last year, due to a series of experiences, my feelings have totally changed. I always thought my life would one day revolve around being a wife and mother. Yet as I've gotten older (and this is all in perspective-I'm still 'just' 25-) I realize that I love having my own life way too much to settle down with kids. I mean, I used to really envy the couples I knew who have children, especially after my miscarriage. I totally romanticized the notion of having babies and being a lovey dovey wife. Frankly, I think I was trying to fulfill some emptiness inside myself. NOT that there is anything wrong with that, but for MYSELF, as I become more honest about my feelings, I find way more fulfillment in being financially independent and enjoying my major hobby, horse riding, than I think I would in staying at home with kids. In fact, I know I'd be miserable. Strange that I'd change that much, huh? Now, that's not to say I'll feel different at 35 than at 25, but for now, I'm content to be childless. Or should I say, the 'emptiness' that I feel is due to not having reached the goals that I want for my life, which at present do not include children.
So, can anyone else relate? Did you start out wanting kids but changed your mind? Or vice versa?
So, can anyone else relate? Did you start out wanting kids but changed your mind? Or vice versa?