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The only shopping I get a rush on is dirtbikes....and that is an old one that I make money on.
The depression that has set in since my hubby died has only been satisfied by my solitary time or driving. I really have become seriously into
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The only shopping I get a rush on is dirtbikes....and that is an old one that I make money on.
The depression that has set in since my hubby died has only been satisfied by my solitary time or driving. I really have become seriously into driving...backroads, mountains, freeways, roadtrips, etc. And all solitary with both happy songs or sad, heartbreaking songs. No in-between. I just need to drive. (My version of running away, maybe. Does it help--yeah, most of the time.)
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There is something very soothing and automatic about driving. You can just think, or suspend all thought and just be. If you turn your phone ringer off, you are not bothered by intrusions and your time by yourself is practically guaranteed. You can go on and on with no interruptions and just get lost in it and whatever mood you're in. Have you ever been in a car and just didn't want to arrive at your destination? You just want to keep going because it was so zen and perfect right then? I remember feeling that way several times. Especially at night, I find it like a cocoon and the music really sets the mood as well. I love belting out along with, crying to whatever I have cranked up. Music really touches me. Of course, there is also the option to just keep going and leaving everything behind, but I never had anything I'd really want to leave behind like you do. Still, I can see the appeal and the testing your options aspect of it, even though you ultimately don't run. When you're driving, it's always a possibility that you could just keep going. I think knowing the option is there and accessible is sometimes all we need to reassure ourselves. Good grief, listen to me! Of course I have no experience with something as terrible as what you're dealing with, so please don't think I'm pretending to know what that's like! I do relate to the driving though, if only in a more shallow way.