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Do you ever feel like you are losing your mind?

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Contributor: LusciousLollypop LusciousLollypop
I feel like EF really has some good advice givers out there. Sorry if I'm always venting/ranting on and on about my worries and woes. xoxo

I have no idea if this is normal, probably not. I just feel like I'm losing my mind lately.

I can't focus. I can't sleep. I can't think. My pills aren't working and I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I don't know what the fuck is going on and I'm really starting to get scared. I am fainting way more then I usually do. I didn't faint a lot before, but now it is back. (Vasovagal Syncope Response) It scares me every single time still. I know I'll just get right back up but from standing to feeling myself lose control and that instant feeling of blackout.. I feel sometimes like I won't get back up again and it sets me off into a panic attack.

I have panic attacks 2-3 times a day now, if not more. I cry for no damn reason. I'm having nightmares about everything. Everything involving the rape, my mother, the miscarriage, and people I love that will die one day.

I can't relax. I'm constantly shaking. My anti-anxiety pills are not working. My depression pills are not working. I can only sleep if I completely wear myself out and take an ambien, xanex, nausea medication, and sometimes a pain pill. Other then that, no sleep for me.

I need a schedule. My body doesn't do well to change. Boyfriend got a new job which I am so thankful for, but we go to bed at 9pm and wake up at 4:30am. My body is rejecting this, completely.

I'm constantly tired and constantly on edge. I'm constantly in a state of panic and I can't seem to get out of it, no matter how hard I try.

I don't even want to be intimate with my boyfriend. It literally makes me cry. The other day, I literally had to stop what we were doing or I was going to break down and completely have this emotional train wreck. He is having some problems.. staying aroused. I feel almost like it is my fault and I don't turn him on anymore.

I feel like I'm losing my mind. I don't know what to do.
Answers (public voting - your screen name will appear in the results):
I feel like that numerous times a week!
LusciousLollypop , - Kira -
2
I feel like that sometimes!
js250 , tami
2
I've felt that way a couple times before!
LaSchwartz , SimpleHedonist , Loriandhubby , BlooJay , Missmarc
5
I never feel like that!
I have advice to give you! You are in my thoughts!
TheirPet , Loriandhubby , indiglo , js250 , richsam
5
Other -- Please Explain!
Total votes: 14 (12 voters)
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Contributor: TheirPet TheirPet
Sometimes your body chemistry can change. My partner suffers from depression and anxiety and I suffer from anxiety. Sometimes pills stop working and you gotta try new ones or therapy or a combination of both. I'd talk to you doctor about seeing what they can do for you. It's hard to get things done in a day when you're having episodes like that.

I hope things smooth out for you soon and remember to breathe.
07/12/2012
Contributor: Chilipepper Chilipepper
Lulu, sit down and calm yourself, call your doc to get seen as soon as possible so this can be taken care of. Like TheirPet said - remember to breathe.

*hugs* You've been through a lot recently, sweetheart. Don't blame yourself or push yourself. Take care of what you can and seek help for the rest.
07/12/2012
Contributor: Ansley Ansley
Aw, hon just one thing after another isn't? My advice is to start talking to your doctor, or even try to find a different doctor. I used to have the utmost faith in one of my doctors, but after having some issues with things he swore were perfectly harmless I'm starting to regret ever going to him.
07/12/2012
Contributor: Gracie Gracie
Sweetie you have been through a lot! You need to BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF right now! As our friends have said you have to stay in touch with your doctor so medications can be adjusted and switched as apropriate! It sounds like you have these expectations of where you should be by now, how you should be coping and perhaps be over some it, but that is self defeating. Let go and just accept yourself where you are. It would be might be nice if your guy was more supportive and nurturing durng this stressful time, but he is likely dealing with his own issues of loss and change! It is normal to grieve, and everyone handles grief differently. There isn't anthing I can say that will make things better right away, but we can offer to listen and hold your hand till things get better!
07/12/2012
Contributor: SimpleHedonist SimpleHedonist
I know you have been through a lot lately, and stress really can kick your ass sometimes!!!! I am feeling a lot of physical symptoms of stress myself right now.

Take some time to take care of yourself. Relax, breath, and create a safe place for yourself. Maybe try and find something that you can use to center yourself.... for me that is music. I have a whole set of songs on my mp3 that I listen too when I need to get back to my happy and ok place.

If you ever need a friend to talk to, message me!!!! Thaings will get better, they always do!!!!

07/12/2012
Contributor: Missmarc Missmarc
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Originally posted by LusciousLollypop
I feel like EF really has some good advice givers out there. Sorry if I'm always venting/ranting on and on about my worries and woes. xoxo

I have no idea if this is normal, probably not. I just feel like I'm losing my mind ... more
Maybe a few times here and there.
07/12/2012
Contributor: indiglo indiglo
Can't say anything better than what's been said already, but I can add more
07/12/2012
Contributor: js250 js250
Continue going to your DR, think about joining a bereavement group-or other counseling, ask your DR about postpartum depression due to the miscarriage and hormonal changes and take a break from reality for a few days to a week. That sounds goofy, but if you can take a few days to a week and just be whatever you want when you want--the escape can help even things out and make them easier to deal with when you 'come back'. What has helped me is to grab a notebook and write--everything, does not even have to make sense, just get it OUT!!! Put it away for a few days, then read through it and figure out where things are coming from.

Lots of luck--HUGE hugs and keep asking--it is what we are all here for, to help each other!! (I have also been on the healing end of your advice as well--so keep being there for others, too!! You do NOT just rant and rave.)
07/12/2012
Contributor: richsam richsam
Quote:
Originally posted by LusciousLollypop
I feel like EF really has some good advice givers out there. Sorry if I'm always venting/ranting on and on about my worries and woes. xoxo

I have no idea if this is normal, probably not. I just feel like I'm losing my mind ... more
its ok to vent..everyone needs someone to listen every nows n then
07/12/2012
Contributor: tami tami
i feel like this to sometimes! you are not alone
07/12/2012
Contributor: - Kira - - Kira -
I feel like this a lot, but I have lots of mental problems. I PMed you with my advice.
07/12/2012
Contributor: Dixiemomma Dixiemomma
yes i lost my mind years ago..... why? did you find it?!!??! hehe its ok hun but you need to get the fainting thing under control! that sounds really dangerous! and probably one the reasons the rest of your day and night feels so outta sync
07/12/2012
Contributor: blondie blondie
It could be hormonal. I have PMDD and I get a lot of that if I'm not on the pill. I don't know though, everyones different so you should see your doctor.
07/12/2012