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kmilly
indiana is horrible. i've spent six years (since i was 15) actively trying to find a therapist/doctor who could get me on t. i'm going to nashville in 2 weeks to start testosterone. thank god.
i work out. i haven't been this week much.
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indiana is horrible. i've spent six years (since i was 15) actively trying to find a therapist/doctor who could get me on t. i'm going to nashville in 2 weeks to start testosterone. thank god.
i work out. i haven't been this week much. i'm afraid i'm getting lazy. :/ but it eases my dysphoria so much. i don't know how anyone can say they hate working out, haha. i dunno. i just always leave feeling good. and i'm losing weight/putting on muscle, so i'm hoping that'll make it easier for t to build my body up.
i never had the desire to naturally transition. i have horrible kidneys and potential for a disease (too scared to get tested) that would ravage my liver. for some reason, i think pills are harder on the body than shots. i bind, pack, shave, have dropped my voice, etc. the plan right now is for t and top surgery. if my lack of a dick gets HORRIBLE later, i may see how much growth i can get and consider a meta. then again, penetration is important for me. but maybe in 20 years, science will have come further.
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I was looking at online gender therapists that will do appointments over Skype yesterday, which might help me get a letter for T if I can afford them with their sliding scales. I found a few gender therapists in town, but not a single one is on a sliding scale.
I'm working to get a packer currently (tried to buy one at a store here in town and the workers stared at me like I'd grown a second head). Which means that obviously I'm going to have to get one online.
I'm also thinking of trying to publish some of the children's books that I wrote for my kids when they were tiny (I need an artist, damnit!) and see if I can earn enough from those to get top surgery, which I heavily need.
I've been working out daily and charting my progress on a Tumblr that I post to daily.